Confusion??? or Understanding

What an amazing Life we can experience if we only surrender to it.

As I continue to realize... or rather- as I continue to present myself to the Lord my God, He is teaching me much about His Mystery; that of which is truly hidden until it is revealed. But, my earthly desired-life keeps getting in the way. There is a song by Tenth Avenue North that sings... 'don't fight these hands that are holding you'. In other words... we naturally desire to live on the desires and naturality of this world while the Lord is holding us, directing us, teaching us, guiding us, ministering to us. He says that I got you- pretty much right where He wants you... right in His hands. Seeing us through our trials and tribulations, always there- never forsaking us or leaving us; to ensure that we WILL MAKE IT THROUGH ALL OUR TRIALS SAFELY AND WITH VICTORY.

The more I meditate and seek Him, the more I am learning that we are to live by Grace and not by our own ways.

Your ways are not My ways.

It is no longer I live, but Christ Jesus who lives in me.

But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not in vain; but I labored more abundantly than they all, yet not I, but the grace of God which was with me.

For we are what he has made us, created in Christ Jesus for good works."


But, as I live my own life, I have realized that it is not I that has to even -live- it. Yes, it is my life and I can do anything that I very well please. But if I empty myself and make my self available to the Lord, then I can Live the Life that He has intended for me to live.

For I have great plans for you.

“As the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand, O house of Israel”.

So whoever cleanses himself [from what is ignoble and unclean, who separates himself from contact with contaminating and corrupting influences] will [then himself] be a vessel set apart and useful for honourable and noble purposes, consecrated and profitable to the Master, fit and ready for any good work.


But if I do not surrender myself and seek His Will, then how can God do His work in me if I do not present myself to Him? Other wise I am just wasting an opportunity to live a perfect life....... hmmmm, just as Christ did.... CAPISCH? But, perhaps this is very far fetched and impossible and contrasting to the word of God. We are, after-all, designed to be sinners. But, then again, God wants us to conform to His own image- which is Love.

The bottom line is we are put through sufferings as ordained by God Himself. We will fall, but He is always there to help us, to call out to us, to shepherd us, to reconcile us through Him to God. In Him we have a new covenant with God through Christ... after all, before the coming of Christ in the flesh, the penalty for sin is death; but Christ came and died and rose so we can be pardoned of our sin by the shedding of His blood.

There is much process that is in my mind to discern all that is shared with me... I just want to say that, because, when I am not seeking Him, I am not feeding on the daily bread that is offered for each day.