At one point towards about 2 weeks ago, my body started to ail. My vertebra flamed up. I was weak. Where was my strength?
This gave me a strong appreciation for the Lord GIVING me the strength to stand against the opposition.
- The Joy of the Lord is my Strength.
Despite getting discouraged by my back/groin, God is testing me if I am fully trusting Him. Well, I have fallen. But, He is trying to pick me up, encouraging me to fight the good fight of Faith. To stand firm against the opposition.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Under great fire
How great of a fire I am under:
- My ailing hip
- Continued strife in my marriage
- Employment
- Idleness
- Credit cards
- Money running out
- No vehicle
- Wicked servant
I am sick and tired of my wife. I am tired of going over to 'HER' house and then getting asked to leave. I feel that I am of no value to her. When I think of all the insecure actions of her- I CAN'T STAND IT!!! I am a defensive person in her presence because of all her perceived attacks.
- The van brakes.
- Ignoring me @ lunch.
- Not cuddling with Grace.
- Inquiring about what I did that day.
- Not letting me use the vehicle.
- Not being thankful for anything- dinner, shampoo carpets, cleaning bathroom, laundry room, sitting area.
Yes, I am bitter against her! I just want to give up dealing with her in all aspects of my life. I am tired of being rejected, attacked and not being loved.
I all my thoughts listed above, I AM DISOBEYING GOD!!!
God gave His Son up for us. How much more so are we to give up our lives to Jesus. In China, there is a great smog, but above it all is clear. I am looking at all these worldly things in my life instead of looking up at my provider, counselor, restorer, maestro.
The enemy is really using all the above to try and derail me. To tell me to give up in my marriage. To focus on the past/present and not what lies ahead as ordained by God Himself.
What scriptures are there...
- Trust in the Lord your God.
- Acknowledge all your ways before God and He will make your paths straight.
- I present to you a thorn in the flesh.
- Be Holy and walk in the spirit and you will not be under His Law. Walk in the flesh and you will be under His Law.
The bottom line is that... I gotta give everything up at the cross- EVERYTHING! If I expect to live for myself, it will just turn into turmoil. But, I gave up myself for Him to take over everything in my life. This is something relatively new in recent months.
The work of men will not prosper, but do the work of the Holy Spirit and you will be blessed.
I believe that God is going to bring me... He has brought me into His Upper Echelon, He is readying me for a new prosperity, a new advancement that I can glorify Him and for the advancement of His Kingdom.
- I don't have to be under satan's rule of affliction.
- The Joy of the Lord is my Strength.
- I can be humble before my Lord and accept what direction He is leading me to.
- I don't have to be so defensive.
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- My ailing hip
- Continued strife in my marriage
- Employment
- Idleness
- Credit cards
- Money running out
- No vehicle
- Wicked servant
I am sick and tired of my wife. I am tired of going over to 'HER' house and then getting asked to leave. I feel that I am of no value to her. When I think of all the insecure actions of her- I CAN'T STAND IT!!! I am a defensive person in her presence because of all her perceived attacks.
- The van brakes.
- Ignoring me @ lunch.
- Not cuddling with Grace.
- Inquiring about what I did that day.
- Not letting me use the vehicle.
- Not being thankful for anything- dinner, shampoo carpets, cleaning bathroom, laundry room, sitting area.
Yes, I am bitter against her! I just want to give up dealing with her in all aspects of my life. I am tired of being rejected, attacked and not being loved.
I all my thoughts listed above, I AM DISOBEYING GOD!!!
God gave His Son up for us. How much more so are we to give up our lives to Jesus. In China, there is a great smog, but above it all is clear. I am looking at all these worldly things in my life instead of looking up at my provider, counselor, restorer, maestro.
The enemy is really using all the above to try and derail me. To tell me to give up in my marriage. To focus on the past/present and not what lies ahead as ordained by God Himself.
What scriptures are there...
- Trust in the Lord your God.
- Acknowledge all your ways before God and He will make your paths straight.
- I present to you a thorn in the flesh.
- Be Holy and walk in the spirit and you will not be under His Law. Walk in the flesh and you will be under His Law.
The bottom line is that... I gotta give everything up at the cross- EVERYTHING! If I expect to live for myself, it will just turn into turmoil. But, I gave up myself for Him to take over everything in my life. This is something relatively new in recent months.
The work of men will not prosper, but do the work of the Holy Spirit and you will be blessed.
I believe that God is going to bring me... He has brought me into His Upper Echelon, He is readying me for a new prosperity, a new advancement that I can glorify Him and for the advancement of His Kingdom.
- I don't have to be under satan's rule of affliction.
- The Joy of the Lord is my Strength.
- I can be humble before my Lord and accept what direction He is leading me to.
- I don't have to be so defensive.
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