Moses gave up his reign as prince, only to endure the path set forth by God. He went through tough times dealing with tough people. His pleas were not automatic, but he persisted in the request of Pharaoh letting the Israelites go- ten times. He was lead in one nasty life of suffering. I would also say that Christ suffered tremendously while He was here as well.
But, I am here at this point in my life here at my parents, taking the brunt from other people and letting them degrade and put me down. But, Moses, after all he went through, did not fall into depression as I have. He went according to his deeds set forth my God. Am I to say that I have been sent here at my parents to some type of purpose? It is true only if I claim that God is the Author of my life.
Lord, this life is very confusing to understand all that we go through. But, You have a plan for us and we do not always like or understand what is happening to us. You are a promise for us. Our life is a promise. Your Will is a promise. Our situations is a promise. Help me to comprehend Your promise for my life so that Your Will be fulfilled. Help me to recognize Your presence here in my life and reveal Your provision to me while I am here at my parents. I know that I am not a victim. I know that I do not have to be depressed. I know that Egypt does not reign over You. Let Your Love fill me. Fill my cup Lord 'til I can't take no more. Let me share Your Love to those around me. Reveal Your solution to all the problems around us. Change our hearts from stone to flesh. Life has gone array, but You can restore it to Your majestic intensity on earth as it is in heaven. Prepare my heart to receive Your Love. I come back to the well for a refill. Carry me out this day. Shepherd me. I ask for Your wisdom. Let me fight the good fight of faith so Your presence be known. Whom is my brothers keeper and why? Darkness will fall and light will gain victory.
This is Your Promise God, Yours, not mine. Help me to recognize and act upon Your leadership as Moses has. He can do it, so can I. Christ did it, so can I. If I can do it, so can others.
Lift up my burdened heart. I have fallen as promised, so strengthen me as promised. The ball is in Your court, help me help You. I love You and need You in my life, others need You just as much as I. Have a great day, this is actually Yours anyhow. Love You.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Thank God for His word
Genesis 50:15-21 (New King James Version)
Joseph Reassures His Brothers
15 When Joseph’s brothers saw that their father was dead, they said, “Perhaps Joseph will hate us, and may actually repay us for all the evil which we did to him.” 16 So they sent messengers to Joseph, saying, “Before your father died he commanded, saying, 17 ‘Thus you shall say to Joseph: “I beg you, please forgive the trespass of your brothers and their sin; for they did evil to you.”’ Now, please, forgive the trespass of the servants of the God of your father.” And Joseph wept when they spoke to him.
18 Then his brothers also went and fell down before his face, and they said, “Behold, we are your servants.”
19 Joseph said to them, “Do not be afraid, for am I in the place of God? 20 But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive. 21 Now therefore, do not be afraid; I will provide for you and your little ones.” And he comforted them and spoke kindly to them.
For God meant it for good..
Thank You.
I have always thrived on my bitterness and resentment towards my wife; based on all that has happened and all the choices she has made that has done nothing but cause a lot of pain, not only for me, but for my children as well. But, this is a view from my earthly reactions apart the perspective that God has invested in my life's growth and endurance that Christ had portrayed back in the day.
But, knowing that God has been behind these trials has put out any doubts that my life is on a bad journey. I have been severely depressed with no way of getting released, or so I thought. This is why it is so important to seek your devotional every day. Without doing so, I would continue on my spiraling fall without an end.
I had prayed that I let go of everything so that I could forgive instead of convict. So that I could move on. So that God could continue His restoration in my life. Before, I just wanted to burn bridges, now, I would like to bridge the indifference in the way I view life. I had continually wanted to die, reciting death chants, disregarding a desire to see the future of my children w/ their daddy.
Joseph Reassures His Brothers
15 When Joseph’s brothers saw that their father was dead, they said, “Perhaps Joseph will hate us, and may actually repay us for all the evil which we did to him.” 16 So they sent messengers to Joseph, saying, “Before your father died he commanded, saying, 17 ‘Thus you shall say to Joseph: “I beg you, please forgive the trespass of your brothers and their sin; for they did evil to you.”’ Now, please, forgive the trespass of the servants of the God of your father.” And Joseph wept when they spoke to him.
18 Then his brothers also went and fell down before his face, and they said, “Behold, we are your servants.”
19 Joseph said to them, “Do not be afraid, for am I in the place of God? 20 But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive. 21 Now therefore, do not be afraid; I will provide for you and your little ones.” And he comforted them and spoke kindly to them.
For God meant it for good..
Thank You.
I have always thrived on my bitterness and resentment towards my wife; based on all that has happened and all the choices she has made that has done nothing but cause a lot of pain, not only for me, but for my children as well. But, this is a view from my earthly reactions apart the perspective that God has invested in my life's growth and endurance that Christ had portrayed back in the day.
But, knowing that God has been behind these trials has put out any doubts that my life is on a bad journey. I have been severely depressed with no way of getting released, or so I thought. This is why it is so important to seek your devotional every day. Without doing so, I would continue on my spiraling fall without an end.
I had prayed that I let go of everything so that I could forgive instead of convict. So that I could move on. So that God could continue His restoration in my life. Before, I just wanted to burn bridges, now, I would like to bridge the indifference in the way I view life. I had continually wanted to die, reciting death chants, disregarding a desire to see the future of my children w/ their daddy.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Give us the desire of our hearts. What are we desiring? I can say that I have been dwelling on all that has happened to me and I know that a time will come when I am healed from it and will not be troubled by it. It does take time to heal. But, ultimately, God answers prays if it is within His will. But if we are not praying for each other, how can He give us the desires of our hearts?
In my many frustrations, I have acted out in impatience to all that has happened to me. I put up with foul mouths, nasty tone of voice, rejections. All because I do not present all my problems to the Lord.
To think that things are going to automatically happen because He is God and God will do what ever He wants, may not necessarily happen due to lack of faith.
Who is going to be our brothers keeper? That is us. We still need to pray for others as one of our responsibilities. I often just sit back and let people go about their ways that hurt me and wonder what God is going to do to them. On the other hand, Christ is so merciful and graceful. I wonder how and why God takes ones life in our numbered days. Is he shortening our lives due to the continuation of our sin or is it the consequences set forth by the covenant with God. The penalty for sin in the old testament is death. But Christ brought in a new covenant with God because He was sent to teach the word of God and by serving it.
We are here on earth to be responsible with everything the God gives us.
I often expect harsh punishments to those around me, including me, of all the sin that are caused against the word of God. I can't stand a potty mouth that just goes on without a desire to change. The Lord does hand us over to our own devices. We do have our own choices to make. In my rebellion, am I going about my own desires and being turned over to them? Or, am I going through a trial by God to learn something new...
As I wander in my trial, of which Christ says He will always be with us, I AM relying on my own thoughts and not standing firm in my faith. Instead of my faith, I am relying on my own thought process. So, as I fathom at this point in my life and see that the Lord is calling out to me, am I about to be delivered out of my trial and tribulation? My God given desire to answer His call is something that I cannot ignore. I am His sheep and I do hear His voice when ever I begin to wander... and I have wondered for some time. The amazing thing of it all, is that the Lord is ALWAYS there to receive us back... with arms wide open, no matter what we have done or how much we have rejected Him, or how I did not uphold His law that has been taught.
All in all, I have taken a depressive stance on other peoples actions that, over and over, has conditioned my heart in such an abusive way. That is not how Christ did it when He was here. Yeah, He did dispair, He did become troubled by the circumstances He was put through. But, He did not give in to depression as I have. He did teach us to not to dwell on the past. He did say that He is the great restorer of our lives. Why a restorer? Because there is one who destroys.
How many times have I written something to this effect? How many times do I look back and read what was shared with me?
I think the bottom line is that I must learn to re-trust Christ, knowing that I need to pray for those around me, knowing that I am only here for a short while. Knowing that I will be with Christ someday with no more pain, no more fears and no more tears. I CAN DO THAT. There is much going on around me and I need a savior as well as those amongst me.
Lord, can You lead me to share Your love for us, not the hatred that we are too familiar with. For I know that You can cover our minds and our heart with Your peace. This is not a perfect place, but You are with us to endure and not be held down by strongholds. I love You and need You is such desperation. Thank You for being silent in my life, but even more, thank You for calling out to me. I love You.
In my many frustrations, I have acted out in impatience to all that has happened to me. I put up with foul mouths, nasty tone of voice, rejections. All because I do not present all my problems to the Lord.
To think that things are going to automatically happen because He is God and God will do what ever He wants, may not necessarily happen due to lack of faith.
Who is going to be our brothers keeper? That is us. We still need to pray for others as one of our responsibilities. I often just sit back and let people go about their ways that hurt me and wonder what God is going to do to them. On the other hand, Christ is so merciful and graceful. I wonder how and why God takes ones life in our numbered days. Is he shortening our lives due to the continuation of our sin or is it the consequences set forth by the covenant with God. The penalty for sin in the old testament is death. But Christ brought in a new covenant with God because He was sent to teach the word of God and by serving it.
We are here on earth to be responsible with everything the God gives us.
I often expect harsh punishments to those around me, including me, of all the sin that are caused against the word of God. I can't stand a potty mouth that just goes on without a desire to change. The Lord does hand us over to our own devices. We do have our own choices to make. In my rebellion, am I going about my own desires and being turned over to them? Or, am I going through a trial by God to learn something new...
As I wander in my trial, of which Christ says He will always be with us, I AM relying on my own thoughts and not standing firm in my faith. Instead of my faith, I am relying on my own thought process. So, as I fathom at this point in my life and see that the Lord is calling out to me, am I about to be delivered out of my trial and tribulation? My God given desire to answer His call is something that I cannot ignore. I am His sheep and I do hear His voice when ever I begin to wander... and I have wondered for some time. The amazing thing of it all, is that the Lord is ALWAYS there to receive us back... with arms wide open, no matter what we have done or how much we have rejected Him, or how I did not uphold His law that has been taught.
All in all, I have taken a depressive stance on other peoples actions that, over and over, has conditioned my heart in such an abusive way. That is not how Christ did it when He was here. Yeah, He did dispair, He did become troubled by the circumstances He was put through. But, He did not give in to depression as I have. He did teach us to not to dwell on the past. He did say that He is the great restorer of our lives. Why a restorer? Because there is one who destroys.
How many times have I written something to this effect? How many times do I look back and read what was shared with me?
I think the bottom line is that I must learn to re-trust Christ, knowing that I need to pray for those around me, knowing that I am only here for a short while. Knowing that I will be with Christ someday with no more pain, no more fears and no more tears. I CAN DO THAT. There is much going on around me and I need a savior as well as those amongst me.
Lord, can You lead me to share Your love for us, not the hatred that we are too familiar with. For I know that You can cover our minds and our heart with Your peace. This is not a perfect place, but You are with us to endure and not be held down by strongholds. I love You and need You is such desperation. Thank You for being silent in my life, but even more, thank You for calling out to me. I love You.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
How much suffering did David actually suffer? How much suffering did Jesus actually suffer? How much suffering am I actually suffering.
If God is indeed in control of everything, we will be delivered of whatever trial we are in. No matter how long it endures, testing our faith to the ultimate utmost.
David, in my mind, suffered tremendously in ways I can now relate to. In todays readings, he waited:
Psalm 130:5-8 (New King James Version)
5 I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
And in His word I do hope.
6 My soul waits for the Lord
More than those who watch for the morning—
Yes, more than those who watch for the morning.
7 O Israel, hope in the LORD;
For with the LORD there is mercy,
And with Him is abundant redemption.
8 And He shall redeem Israel
From all his iniquities.
He waited and know, trusted, knowing that God is still amongst us. Standing firm in the faith that is gifted. I have fallen, harder each time in recent past. Trying to endure the circumstances that have become active in my Author's ways. But, I have had to go through it for some reason. I have had to go through moments to get to this point; not enjoying any moment of it and acting out in frustration and misunderstanding.
But, David has written what he did in his moments. Wait upon the Lord. As I spoke his words, it put me in his thoughts simultaneously w/ mine. Then I thought on how Christ waited for his death upon the cross- going through what no man has ever gone through. Painfully turning Himself in to the authorities of the land, knowing what was going to happen. He gracefully cooperated and humbly responded in His godly manner. But, Christ waited until it was all accomplished- His tenure here on earth, the shedding of His blood, the forgiveness/mercy for those whom persecuted Him.
David continually cried out to God and continually waited for Him, knowing things had to come to pass.
I thank You for Your word and for revealing and ministering to me in my attempt to seek Your wisdom for my life. My heart cries inside, knowing that You are always here and waiting continuously for me. Lord, help me to wait for You, as long and with such promise as You wait for me. Help me to release the walls and strongholds that I have put up and have strangled me. Restore me and prepare me a life from this point forward.
Thank You
If God is indeed in control of everything, we will be delivered of whatever trial we are in. No matter how long it endures, testing our faith to the ultimate utmost.
David, in my mind, suffered tremendously in ways I can now relate to. In todays readings, he waited:
Psalm 130:5-8 (New King James Version)
5 I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
And in His word I do hope.
6 My soul waits for the Lord
More than those who watch for the morning—
Yes, more than those who watch for the morning.
7 O Israel, hope in the LORD;
For with the LORD there is mercy,
And with Him is abundant redemption.
8 And He shall redeem Israel
From all his iniquities.
He waited and know, trusted, knowing that God is still amongst us. Standing firm in the faith that is gifted. I have fallen, harder each time in recent past. Trying to endure the circumstances that have become active in my Author's ways. But, I have had to go through it for some reason. I have had to go through moments to get to this point; not enjoying any moment of it and acting out in frustration and misunderstanding.
But, David has written what he did in his moments. Wait upon the Lord. As I spoke his words, it put me in his thoughts simultaneously w/ mine. Then I thought on how Christ waited for his death upon the cross- going through what no man has ever gone through. Painfully turning Himself in to the authorities of the land, knowing what was going to happen. He gracefully cooperated and humbly responded in His godly manner. But, Christ waited until it was all accomplished- His tenure here on earth, the shedding of His blood, the forgiveness/mercy for those whom persecuted Him.
David continually cried out to God and continually waited for Him, knowing things had to come to pass.
I thank You for Your word and for revealing and ministering to me in my attempt to seek Your wisdom for my life. My heart cries inside, knowing that You are always here and waiting continuously for me. Lord, help me to wait for You, as long and with such promise as You wait for me. Help me to release the walls and strongholds that I have put up and have strangled me. Restore me and prepare me a life from this point forward.
Thank You
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