Trust

Is trust something that is earned???

In the story of the Prodigal son, it is apparent that it was not. The father seen him far away, and the father ran to him with love, mercy and grace; receiving him even before he arrived.

Trust in the Lord your God. How can we say that His trust is earned??? That would just be wrong... but, perhaps, He continually shows that He wants us, calls out to us. As we wander in our own destruction, we often leave Him and the trust we have in Him when things do not go our way. This is the human falter in our flesh, this also could be known as the 'thorn in our flesh'.

It is almost as if He trusts us to answer His call and go back to Him... repenting and asking for forgiveness. Though, as often as we reject Him, He STILL holds no grudge against us and continually shares His Love for us.

The Lord assuredly knows what we go through; He has gone through immense trial in the wilderness for 40 DAYS!!! I do not know what He went through... but, I am sure

Its as if... if God did not trust His Son to go into the world; He may have not sent Him. This is just pure speculation that does not hold any order. But, may I look at this... knowing that if God puts me through faith-building trials- He 'IS' trusting me to endure the trial to the end. But, we can only pass this trial only when we keep our trust in Him.

But, when we fall and leave Him in our own desires, we gain resentment, bitterness, unforgiveness and anger. But, how do we get back to trusting Him according to His ways??? I think by His mercy and grace. He IS 'LOVE'!!! But, it is only when He shows us or ministers to us in a fashion that we simply cannot turn down or away from. He is continually calling out to us when we wander.

There is a start contrast- AND PERHAPS THE LARGEST CONTRAST- between the flesh and Holiness. Though, we live in the flesh, we do our best to conform ourselves to His image;




So, as I look at my wife and I... there has been a lack of trust; and for me, lost any trace of trust in her. Is it still fare for me to say that I 'forgive' her? Perhaps, I have forgiven her in the fact that I have entrusted all that has happened to my Savior. Let go of the resentment, bitterness that I burdened for a period of time, and, our of faith, have forgiven her.

But, my dilemma is... if God Will is to reconcile us as one, I am unable at time to fully receive her back. Why??? I do not trust her. Is it because I do not want to have anything to do w/ her until she surrenders her life fully to Jesus? Could this very well be a judgement that I am holding against her?

Now, certain things have had to come to pass to get to this point. At one point, I did not fully understand what was going to happen to us. I had basically written her off, as well as our marriage and was moving on with my life; taking care of my well-being and moving forward, not relying on the past; as the Lord say 'do not dwell on the past'.

But, as God has revealed revelation in what is to come; ref: the book of Philemon. I am dealing with the notion that I have already set my path for divorce. But, I guess I gotta let that go in order to receive her- not grudgingly, but lovingly and voluntarily. So, as I wonder how I can do so, it is relatively difficult. And the problem is that I have lost the trust that I had in her; BUT, is this something that... in my human flesh, that is typically earned??? Many of people have said that trust is earned.

Never-the-less, my ways are not His ways, my thoughts are not His thoughts...

So, this is my prayer that, by faith I can receive her back just as my Lord receives her back- with thanksgiving and praise. Huh, just as the book of Philemon.