Bankruptcy

Pretty tough thing to go through what I am going through. I can't even pay attention let alone my bills. But one thing that I do have peace about is... the rest that God puts into my life.

It is upon my heart that this bankruptcy thing may have to come to pass. The ways of this world has put me into bondage in the ways that I had coveted according to my heart. I lived in that manner- according to the ways of the world.

In bankruptcy, I must declare all my valuables so the trustee may review them and may take them away to pay for part of the debt that I owe them. Much of it I wish to keep and not let go. I could potentially hide some stuff... but that still would not be right. God is watching.

I will inventory all my stuff and declare EVERYTHING as best as I can- especially all that seem to be most important to me... my fishing gear... golfing equipment... computer.

But, I also think that in filing for bankruptcy, my credit of this world will be no more. This will only force me to FULLY rely on my Provider instead of this credit that everyone so covets.

My trust in in the Lord, to teach me, to raise me, to feed me when I am hungry, to give me thirst when I am thirsty. It is perhaps a desire that He has put in me as He did in Paul? To serve Him fully and to rely on my Savior in all things He puts before me?